This is what I have been up to lately. =)

Hello, one and all! I thought it was about time I wrote another post to let you all know what I have been up to since my last post which was oh so long ago.

First, though, I would like to thank all my followers for hanging in there with me and all the new followers that have decided to read what I write here. I appreciate you all more than you know.

Okay, where to start with my news. I have no particular order in mind so I will write as things occur to me since this is not meant to be a timeline but more of a list of things I am or have been doing.

I am still doing soundboard duties at my church but now I have been learning how to run the presentation software that puts images and words up on the screen at the front of the church via the laptop and projector.

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So, this means that pretty much every weekend I switch between either of these jobs. Last weekend I was on sound and it looks like this weekend I will be too unless something happens and they need me on the laptop.

I had a woman from the congregation come up to the Soundbooth last Sunday and express her pleasure in the music and quality of sound she was hearing.

Some exciting news on the soundboard front! Our church will be getting a brand new mixer (soundboard) with 24 (edited)32 channels. Our current board has 14 so this one will be much bigger and newer.

I am excited because it means I get to learn how to control this new one and we won’t have to push the system as hard since there will be more than enough space and power which will make my job easier in the end.

Along with the new board, we are getting professional powered speakers and a new flatscreen monitor for the booth. When all this new equipment arrives I am going to feel like a kid at Christmas. LOL 😀

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This is the mixer we are getting it is a Yamaha MGP32X 32 channel board.

Now, on to other news, I finally got our taxes completed and filed with the government. It is April and tax time in Canada. We have until April 31st technically but since it falls on a Sunday this year the government will still consider taxes filed on time if they receive it by May 1st.

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I don’t like to leave it that late but it is a pain getting all the paperwork and receipts etc. together and filling out the forms and I dread it every year. I am so happy it is over for another year.  🙂

I have also taken on the job of getting all the music sheets together and organized for our church. Oh, what did I get myself into there!?

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I had to put them in order and fill binder after binder worth so that the songs would be easy to locate for each musician or singer that went looking for a particular song.

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That has been a huge undertaking that I have invested hours upon hours doing and I am thankful to report that the job is just about completed. I have to retype the indexes for each binder and take the whole huge box of binders back to the church.

Not to worry, I am taking time out from all these jobs to not only work on my YouTube channel and relax a bit too.

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My channel now sits at 830 subscribers at last count and I am gaining roughly three to four more each day. It seems ever since I hit that magic number, of 500 subscribers, my channel growth has been snowballing.

If you would like to come over and check it out for yourself I will put a link here (it will open in a new window to leave your reading of this post uninterrupted.)

Susan Millard’s YouTube Channel

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Of course, I am relaxing sometimes as well as I mentioned. I have been doing a lot of reading and doing some adult coloring. This is keeping me relatively stress-free for the most part while I tackle all these large jobs with paperwork.

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I have also been continuing to practice playing my mandolin. I am happy to say that my left-hand fingers are all nicely calloused which makes it easier to play for longer.

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I am currently working on different strumming and picking patterns to use with the mandolin. These instruments are not usually played like a guitar as they are meant for a different type of music; namely bluegrass and fiddle tunes and the like.

I have learned a total of 10 or 11 chords so far and am getting pretty proficient at switching between them. This has proven to be a difficult task, to teach me how to play using books and the internet.

A metronome has been a recent purchase to aid in my strumming and picking so that I can keep time properly, so that is helping I think. It was on sale for $10 at our favorite music store marked down from $28.95! That kind of deal I could not pass up.

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As for the book, I am writing for my grandson, Ethan, I am still plodding along working at getting that done as time permits. I have the basic storyline down and have some names picked out for the dragon although I have not decided on THE name yet, not for certain.

Getting the wording just right is proving to be tougher to do than I thought. The words need to be simple and I need to capture the story in maybe 15 pages maximum. A majority of those pages are going to be big beautiful pictures with great detail.

I do have the materials collected to put this book together but figuring out just what it is going to say and look like is frustratingly difficult. But, I will persist and work that out and get it done. It is for Ethan after all! 😉

Oh, my husband and I have just started seeing a new dentist right here in town so we no longer have to travel half an hour each way to and from North Bay for appointments.

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Yay! Our new dentist is kind and easy to talk to about our teeth and takes our point of view into account when it comes to planning treatment.

We have also had several good references from the people we know here in town who go to him. We both had a cleaning done today as well as a new patient exam by Dr. Wong.

Well, I think that does it, for now, you are pretty much up to speed with what I have been doing with my time while away from my blog. Again, thank you for being there and for stopping by to read my posts. I do appreciate all of you, so much.

Have a wonderful day/night wherever you are – until next time. 🙂

Happy New Year! Welcome to 2017!

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Hello everyone, welcome back to my blog. It is officially January 1st, 2017 and I am writing this at the tail end of the day.

Our current time is 11:34 P.M. and I am writing now because I think it is important to get this particular post up as soon after the new year as possible.

Edit: It is now January 2nd, 2017 and I am finishing the final edit on this post and publishing it today.

Today was busy but good. I have already started my New Year’s Goals/Intentions and it feels good.

I recently read some great information on the differences between resolutions and goals/intentions which I covered in my last post. I must say I prefer the idea of goals/intentions.

Please see my last post that I have linked here (it will open in a new window) for details on what I read and where you can find it too. –> Update & Saying Goodbye To 2016

If you fail at resolutions it is all done…there is no coming back from that failure. Resolutions seem to be set in stone with a do or die kind of feel to them.

If you fail to reach and attain a goal you can simply figure out what held you back from achieving it and then reassess and readjust the goal to try again.

I don’t know about you but I for one am tired of feeling like a New Year failure. That is what made me stop writing resolutions in the first place.

I guess before I go too much further I should let you all in on what I have defined as my goals and intentions for 2017.

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My Goals /Intentions For 2017

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Goal # 1 – Call and talk to friends and family once a week or more often this year.

The intention behind goal #1 – I want to and need to keep in touch with the people that matter to me and this year I intend to do just that. These people matter to me and for far too long I have allowed life to distract me and let it get me too busy doing things instead of connecting with the people I love.

Goal #2 – Read 40 books in 2017 keeping track using Goodreads.

The intention behind goal #2 – I will spend more time doing what I enjoy, which is reading, I want to invest more ME time. I have spent a lot of time doing the do things and lost track of my joy. I want to reclaim that happiness that I had before life got too busy.

Goal #3 – One day per week do artwork for either my YouTube channel or my blog (or both).

The intention behind goal #3 – I will not only get artistic content for both my channel and my blog but I will also spend more time creating art, drawing, painting and so on.

It has been too long since I took out my sketchbook and just focussed on my art. Again, I will spend more time doing what I enjoy with the bonus of creating content which I need anyway.

It is important to focus on a limited number of goals in order to ensure a better chance at success.

I stopped at three goals/intentions since I have not written a New Year Resolutions List for years. If I keep my number of goals down to a modest three I stand a better chance of being able to achieve them.

Too many goals and it will be all too easy to lose track and lose focus. I need to be able to keep my goals in sight front and center all year in order to work toward them every day.

Let’s face it if the list was a long one of 10 goals I would eventually, and in fairly short order I would think, look at the long list and give up.

That huge list would look more and more like a burden instead of something I want to strive for.

If I manage to conquer these goals this year I figure it will build my confidence to try for bigger goals next year. Correction; I have to rephrase that so I am not defeating myself before I start.

What I should have said was WHEN I conquer these goals this year… the intention is everything. What was that saying? Oh yes, this one!

In particular, I am thinking of the second set of lines. Watch your words for they become actions.

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Today was only the first day of the year and I have actually worked on two of the three goals. I spent quite a bit of time this afternoon reading.

If you click on the Goodreads panel down there on the right side of the screen you will be taken to my Goodreads list of book(s) that I am currently reading.

I also made a phone call to connect with someone I love. That simple act of talking to them on the phone made me smile and I realize once again I need to do this more.

People are always more important than things.

How is your New Year starting out so far? Mine is working out pretty well, so far,…I feel invigorated and full of hope for this fresh start in a brand new year.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my post once again my friends, I really appreciate your support. 🙂

 

 

Thank You, Everyone!

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Today’s post is dedicated to every single one of you out there in cyberspace that stops by and reads my blog from time to time. I want to say  Thank You as I approach this milestone.

Coming up very quickly now, on Wednesday, December 21st, I will be celebrating ONE FULL YEAR since my very first post on this blog.

The 21st is also my husband’s birthday. He turns 48 this year and I can’t tell you how different things are since he turned 47. Wait, maybe I can…let’s see. 😉

We live in a different apartment and a different locale. We moved from the city with a population of somewhere around 54,500 people to a town with a population of 3,500.

That alone was a huge difference and then adding to that our apartment itself has gone from something stuck in the 50’s/60’s to an apartment that is brand new & modern, where we are the very first tenants.

We went from not going to church at all in the city to being fully involved in our local church here.

Kevin plays guitar sometimes with the worship team. I operate the soundboard and record the sermon to be put on the church’s website.

Both of us help clean the church every other week as well. Life here has turned a full 180 degrees from the life we lived back in the city.

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This will be my 92nd post and I now have 88 followers on WordPress plus 3 followers via email. I am ecstatically happy with my blog’s growth.

It means the world to me that all those people, and more, want to read what I write. Thank you, doesn’t begin to express my gratitude but it is the best I can do right now.

In that same year, my YouTube channel has finally begun to take off as well. Back in the city, I was lucky to have just over 200 subscribers and just yesterday I attained 600 subs!

On the 21st I will be enjoying a steak dinner with all the fixings with my husband to celebrate not only his birthday but a tremendous first anniversary of my blog.

The fact that I have stuck to writing this blog that long is amazing to me. I have attempted to blog before but soon lost interest and let the blogs fade into obscurity.

I actually feel like I am in a really good place in my life now. Gone are the depressing surroundings, gone too are the wishy-washy commitments to blogging and to my YouTube channel.

Now that I am seeing significant changes and improvements in all areas in my life and what I am doing I feel like I have the momentum to keep rolling full steam ahead in this direction.

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Well, my friends, I will cut this post short and get it uploaded. There is still much to do and so very little day left in which to do it.

Please know that I appreciate each and every one of you reading this. You are all contributing to my happiness in this present moment and I am so very grateful.

Have yourselves a wonderful day/night and I will see you again for post #93.  🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reasons To Say No Thank You To Negativity

Today’s post is inspired by another prompt from 365 Days Of Writing Prompts

Third from the top – Head to your favorite blog. Scroll down to the third post in the list.Take the third sentence in the post, and work it into a new post of your own.

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I have chosen one of my favorite bloggers BeautyBeyondBones for this assignment. The third post in her list, at the time of this writing, is titled

 7 Things I Learned This Election Season   <—and you can find it here. Please go check her blog out I enjoy her posts which are written with heart and spirit.

When I work the third sentence into this post I will put it in bold type so you’ll know.

Have you noticed a lot more people are negative now more than in the past? Sure, there are people that are upbeat and cheery but I find I am running into more grumpy naysayers in my day to day life.

It starts way back in childhood when our parents veto what we want to do. It is their job to impose limits and boundaries for us. Children need to know where these limits are in order to feel secure.

I mention it only because this is the first place we meet up with a firm “No” and are crestfallen to discover that we are not free to do whatever we want.

After this first harsh lesson at home with our parents, we are subjected to negativity from classmates in the schoolyard.

No, you can’t play hopscotch with us, no we don’t want you on the team; heartbreaking messages when you are young.

Rejection is hard to take at any age but seems to cut deeper when we are young and haven’t been toughened up by life yet.

There are a lot of negative emotions as you can see in the graphic below.

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I personally do not see the need for nor the validity of such emotions…I mean really; what purpose does negativity serve?

We feel bad and if we are already spiraling downward into depression this certainly doesn’t help.

In fact, negativity at that stage could push us into doing something rather permanent due to a temporary feeling.

After dealing with negative people and negative feelings for a lot of years (almost 55 years as a matter of fact) I am more than ready to declare something.

I can’t take the negativity any longer!

When people get in a bad mood because of life stresses or something is not going the way they had hoped it can be quite easy to lash out at those around them.

Often the targets of these temper tantrums are the very people who care for and are trying to help them.

In their negative mindset quick tempers and biting words are the chosen response to helpful suggestions.

I am not saying that I never get in a bad mood or a negative frame of mind but I am cognizant of those around me and would rather keep to myself than lash out.

To put it bluntly, I can not stand the negativity in myself any longer either.

Stressors abound in our world today; unemployment, rising prices on everything, relationships get stressed and the news on T.V. is rarely the good kind anymore.

Traffic is jammed on the commute to and from your job if you are lucky enough to have one, or to and from stores or appointments.

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All of this adds up to the world full of people who find themselves in a negative spin. Everyone seems to be angry, frustrated and snappy these days.

Our court system bears witness to our society that would rather sue than talk rationally when there is a problem.

Everywhere we look there are negative attitudes, negative consequences and the government enacting laws that tell us we can’t do this or that.

Sometimes all this negativity makes me want to hole up in my house and live in isolation as much as possible unless I need to go out for food.

Since moving out to the country I can tell you our trips into the city where we used to live stresses me out. The distance doesn’t bother me so much as the crowds in the stores.

People can be rude, inconsiderate and downright angry over the smallest things and I find I am more aware of it now that I live out in the country than when I lived right there in the city.

I believe it is because I am no longer immersed in and desensitized to it, after living in peace and quiet, that it is more apparent to me now.

Do you find there is more negativity around you lately? How do you deal with it? Please let me know in the comment section.

Thanks for visiting my blog once again to read my thoughts today. I do appreciate you stopping by. Have a wonderful day/night and I will be talking to you again. =)

 

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Welcome to Lake Susan!

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Today’s post was inspired by a prompt from 365 Days Of Writing Prompts.

Feed your senses

Write down the first sight, sound, smell, and sensation you experienced on waking up today. Pick the one you’re most drawn to, and write. (For a bigger challenge, pick the one you’re least drawn to.)

The first sensation I experienced on waking up this morning  was sweating and it happens far too often. My husband jokingly refers to me as a lake, hence the title of this post, and I can’t say that he is wrong.

Unfortunately, I have reached that stage in life known as menopause. As women, we all go through it at some point either naturally or as a result of surgery or chemotherapy among other reasons.

I have been dealing with this for a long time now but lately, the menopausal symptoms are getting worse. I think it is time to go see my doctor.

I have been doing a lot of research on the internet. Not to worry, I know some trusted websites to check for medical related information.

Here’re a couple of the ones I use, as an example:

WebMD and MedBroadcast

You can’t believe everything you read or see on the internet and it is important to only consider trusted websites. I cannot stress that enough.

Too many people fall victim to bad advice and quack cures on the internet because they are too trusting. It is important to always check what you are reading with your physician.

Trusted websites are ones that are not only updated regularly but are overseen by medical personnel.

They also tell you something like this (this example is from the MedBroadcast site I have linked above.)

By far sweating is my biggest complaint about menopause. Sweating during the day is bad enough but at night the sheets, my pillow, and everything get drenched.

Combined with that is my Type 2 Diabetes which means I get up at least once in the night to pee. That is a pain in the neck enough with disrupted sleep but coming back to a cold, wet bed is beyond horrible.

I have used bath towels on top of the soaked sheets and pillows to avoid disturbing my husband in order to change the bedding.

I have been washing all my bedding including pillows so often that I fear it is wearing them out or wearing out my laundry machines or both.

Some of the articles I have read say that menopause is different for every woman. Symptoms could go from almost not evident to being so severe as to be debilitating.

Oh, how I wish mine were at the other end of the scale. Unfortunately, my symptoms are registering more toward the debilitating end of the scale.

I am also wondering if this is part of menopause, or maybe it is the Type 2 Diabetes, does anyone else sweat after eating?

I mean, seriously, my arms, legs, head, neck, everywhere is covered in sweat. It reminds me of something I learned about cars or vehicles in general I suppose.

It is called heat soak and that is what it feels like is happening to me. With heat soak, when the vehicle is parked after being driven for a while it will continue to heat up.

No longer being driven means the radiator fan is no longer running and the rad fluid is no longer circulating to cool the engine down; therefore the heat builds up.

When I am no longer eating I can feel the heat build up in me. It is a totally weird feeling and one I think I should mention to my doctor.

Maybe he can explain what this mystery is to me.Thankfully the after eating thing doesn’t last too long before it dissipates.

All I know for sure is that I have to get this figured out and get some help with the symptoms because they are driving me crazy.

Do any of the women reading this post have issues like this? Can you relate? What did you do to get through it?

I would really appreciate any help or suggestions if you would like to leave them in the comments section.I do understand if you don’t feel like sharing details like that in the comments section. Thanks 🙂

For the men who read my blog posts: Sorry for dragging you into female territory today but the prompt lead me to this topic when it asked for the first sensation I felt when I woke up today.

I do appreciate my male audience, very much so, you guys rock! I promise my next post won’t be so uncomfortable for men to read. 🙂 Thanks for bearing with me if you have read this far.

Sauntering Down Memory Lane

Lately, I have been fascinated with looking back on things that were around when I was a child. How many things do you remember? I would love to hear about it in the comments.

I thought I would share a bit of what I remember and write just a few sentences from my memory about each one.

It seems strange looking at this stuff now because a lot of it is no longer available or it has been improved upon so much that it is unrecognizable from what it looked like then.

 

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This was a big thing when I was five years old.

The big box of crayons with the sharpener built in on the back was something I spent many hours using. It was something I absolutely had to have. I still remember the smell.

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“Don’t shoot your eye out”

When this movie, A Christmas Story, came out in 1983 we watched it over and over. I can still quote word for word while watching it. If the speakers on the tv give out I’m the one you want sitting there watching it with you. LOL

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I remember way too many of these.

I remember numbers 1,2,3,6,7,8,14,15,and 16! I don’t remember number 11 but I do remember a mobile library that used to visit the neighborhood in Willowdale, Ontario.

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A&W Drive In Restaurants were the best with waitresses on roller skates.

The last A&W Drive-In Restaurant I went to was in Windsor, Ontario Canada. My ex-husband and I drove there in our 1964 Chevy Impala SS. With such an old car we felt perfectly in tune with the place.

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We used to listen to Johnny Mathis on 8 track in our RV trailer.

I remember this was mounted in the Scamper trailer we used to have when I was growing up. The tapes were big and chunky but there were a few favorites that I liked; one of which was Johnny Mathis.

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I think they still make something like this but not like they used to!

These were great! Both a necklace to wear and handy to just shove in your mouth and nibble away at the candy. Let me tell you it didn’t take me very long to strip it down to just the stretchy cord that held all those candies together.

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IBM Selectric is what you got once you mastered the Royal Manual typewriters

The Royal manual typewriters were the bane of my existence in high school. It took so much effort to get those huge keys to go down then hit the carriage return at the end of a row.

The IBM Selectrics, by comparison, were a dream to type on and took a lot less effort. Don’t get me started on the correction tape we had to use.

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This is my first memory of popsicles before you could buy them in stores, you had to make them.

Homemade popsicles were the best. Not only did the handle have that little loop to hold it by but the lid kept the dripping popsicle from running down your hand and then your arm.

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My mother had one like this. It made a lot of noise and it was hot! It did work well.

These were the first hair dryers. Now they have small, powerful handheld pistol grip ones but back in the day. this is what we used.

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Johnny Carson and Ed McMahon those two were quite the pair.

The way Johnny and Ed bantered back and forth was memorable. They really seemed like two friends that were having a great time together and we got to watch and listen in.

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That’s not a knife THIS is a knife. LOL

Ah, Crocodile Dundee, now he was a character and I used to have a slight crush on him. I think it was the fact that he was Austrailian and had a different way of looking at things.

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I remember being measured for shoes with a setup like this.

The store clerk would sit on this bench in front of you and you put your foot in that contraption on the floor. It slid in at the sides as well as front to back to measure your shoe size.

The clerk would then carry a stack of boxes to your chair and one by one put them on your feet when you put it up on that slanted platform. I felt so special getting treated like that when I was little.

Okay, so I got a little carried away with the memory thing with a few of these, so sue me. LOL Cut the old person a little slack, would you? 😉

I could spend hours on the internet looking at pictures like these; just remembering and being fascinated at how times have changed.

It also occurs to me how much I have been through. It seems like several lifetimes already although I have just the one like all of us do.

Maybe all this nostalgia is being triggered by the thought of my 55th birthday coming up next month. Where has the time gone? How did I get this old this fast?

Boy, do I feel old! Thanks for visiting my blog and sauntering down memory lane with me. What do you remember? Please let me know in the comments. I would love to hear all about it. 🙂

Seven Days To Spend

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Today’s post is inspired by a prompt from  365 days of writing prompts. This is a lot longer piece than I usually write but I am trying something new.

Please let me know in the comments what you think of this post.

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You wake up tomorrow morning to find all your plans have been canceled for the next seven days and $10,000 on your dresser. Tell us about your week.

As the daylight starts filtering it’s way through my beige mini blinds;  I tell myself  what I do every morning without fail; I really need to get darker curtains.

Ugh, it is morning already and I was having the best dream. I really don’t want to get up yet. Oh, I might well because now I have to pee.

As I stretch and yawn trying to wake myself up, so I can traverse the distance between my bed and the toilet in the bathroom without bringing harm to any of my toes, I start to run through my plans for the day and the coming week.

When I finally swing my legs over the side of my bed and stand up I spot something on my dresser that I know for a fact was not there when I closed my eyes last night.

It is a huge bag! No, it is more than that…it is a red velvet bag tied at the top with a silky golden cord. Wait, there is an envelope resting right on top with my name on it.

What the? Who could have gotten in here without me hearing them? What is in this bag? How do they know my name? A million questions flood through my head at once.

My first thought is to grab the envelope and read because my parents always taught me to do that when it came to birthday presents (read the card first) or Christmas gifts (always read the tag first to see who it is from).

So I am conditioned to find out information first before ripping into anything. It might contain vital instructions like open from the top, or do not use a knife.

My bladder reminds me again that I need to visit the bathroom…NOW! Okay, okay I tell it in my head. I snatch the envelope and head to the toilet.

Sitting there I feel the relief as I open the envelope. Darn! I hate it when people seal envelopes shut. That is so annoying because I don’t want to risk tearing the paper or card inside.

Who keeps a letter opener in the bathroom anyway? I work at getting my fingernail under the one end of the glued flap where the envelope isn’t quite sealed.

Ah, success, I have managed to rip the flap open about a third of the way across. From here I insert my finger and savagely rip it open the rest of the way.

Upon pulling the folded sheets of paper out and opening them up I read what is written on them in a perfectly formed cursive script.

Dearest Susan, Please forgive the abruptness of how you found this package and note. I could not risk you finding me placing it there on your dresser. There would be too many questions and I wanted you to discover it just the way you are now.

There would be too many questions and I wanted you to discover it just the way you are now. Please allow me to introduce myself.

My name is Kendra Jackson. I am a wealthy billionaire and this is a social experiment of sorts that I am inviting you to participate in. 

I have arranged to leave this $10,000. on your dresser to see what you will do with it. Will you be generous and share it with one or more people? Will you keep it all for yourself?

I am eager to see how you handle this dilemma; what will you do with all this money? Your schedule has been cleared for the entire week. My people have arranged it to be so in order for you to do what you feel you must with this cash. 

You have one week to complete this task. You must use the entire $10,000. either giving some or all of it away or putting some or all of it in your bank account. Either way, all of it must be used.

At the end of the week; I will write you another note and leave it here in the same place on your dresser with further instructions.

Wow! I have been blown away and a flurry of thoughts fly through my brain while I try to digest the contents of this note.

Hastily I finish in the bathroom and hurry back to my bedroom; partially to get dressed but mostly to open the bag and see this money for myself. I need to be sure it is real.

This feels like a wild dream and I am not even sure I am awake right now. I test this by pinching my own arm. Ouch! Nope, I am definitely awake, that hurt!

I throw on some warm clothes, the weather is starting to get chilly, and grab that silky golden cord on the bag and uncinch it to open it up.

Yes, there before me are 10 bundles of $100. Canadian currency with 10 notes per bundle.Confirmed all $10,000. is there.

Looking at it all leaves me a little light headed. I have never seen this much in one place before. Think, Susan, what are you going to do with it all?

Today is Saturday so I have until next Saturday morning to spend/keep or give away $10,000. cash. I shake my head in disbelief that I have been given this opportunity.

Sure, I have a generous personality and will usually put others needs before my own but with this amount of money I can really do some good for myself too.

Until now I have always worked with a very tight budget and do the best I can. This, though, gives me a chance to do so much more or do I stash it all in my bank account and not ever be stressed out about bills month after month?

This last is so tempting and I wonder what it would be like to just live instead of always having a calculator in my head every moment of the day and night trying to figure out if I will run out of month first or money first.

I decided to keep a diary of what I do with the money with daily entries to document where it goes and keep a running total. I have copied it below so you can see how my week goes.  

Out to the kitchen, I go, to put on a pot of tea. This requires some serious thinking and planning and I need a tea to properly wake up and think clearly.

Saturday $10,000.

The first $1,000. is going to the local food bank. I put the cash in a plain envelope and donate it anonymously.

I have used their services more than I care to admit and giving back even a portion just feels right, feels good.

Sunday $9,000.

The second $1,000. is left, again anonymously, in an envelope in the collection tray as it passes by me at the church I go to every Sunday morning at 11 a.m.

Tithing is important to me and God only asks for 10% of what you have with offerings or donations to ministries above and beyond that.

10% of $10,000. is $1,000. The math makes sense in my head and it makes me smile to be able to give the proper amount.

Monday $8,000.

I have decided to buy my friends and family something special. One item for each of them that I have always wanted to get them but could never afford to.

Shopping is a lot of fun when you don’t need to worry about what the taxes will bring the total to. Likewise, you needn’t concern yourself with what the price tag says either.

I won’t detail here what I purchased for them. I don’t want to give away any surprises after all. LOL The receipts all total up to $2,411.25.

Now to get them all wrapped and delivered. There goes another $242.30 in postage fees. The clerk at the post office was astounded when she saw all the parcels coming in at one time.

Tuesday $5,346.45

Next, comes the donations to various charities that are near and dear to my heart. The top two being The Heart And Stroke Foundation and The Alzheimer’s Society.

I deposit $2,000. into my bank account and write the cheques to send off. My top two get $500. each (in my Dad’s name) and I choose four other charities and divvy up the remaining $1,000. between them at $250. each.

I think funding research into eliminating these devastating diseases is so important. I wish I could afford to give to them every year but my cheque  is usually just enough to live on.

Wednesday $3,346.45

This is fun figuring out what to do with all this money but I must admit I panic a little when I see the balance going down, down, down.

I hope I am spending it the right way and am concerned that I will run out before I do all that I hope to with it.

Today I stayed home and carefully considered what to do with what remains. Besides I am a little overwhelmed and need to rest.

Thursday $3,346.45 (still)

I have decided to splurge a little on myself. Having given away the majority of the money now it is time to pay some attention to my wants too.

Normally, I don’t spend on things for myself. It is enough to make sure my rent and bills are paid and there is food in the house.

I visited my favorite jewelry store in the mall and picked out the most beautiful diamond and 14K white gold ring. In the center is my birthstone, a citrine, and the setting is tasteful and not too big and gaudy.

I have been dreaming of one day affording this ring and had pretty much given up hope it would ever become a reality.

The price of this trinket? $1,725.80 The way I look at it is this is an investment at the same time.

Gold prices keep going up and should I ever need to I could sell it or pawn it to get emergency cash, but only if I absolutely had to.

Friday $1,620.65

The remaining money goes to my creditors. I really like the idea of living debt free. It is like the weight of the world is off my shoulders finally.

My debts are cleared and I now have a clean slate; a new lease on life. I think I spent the money well. I spread it around a fair number of places.

I feel guilty for spending any of it on myself, though. I am not used to doing that and it feels wrong somehow.

Saturday (again) $0.00

It is Saturday again and the week seems to have flown by. I jump out of bed and make a beeline to my dresser. There, true to her word, is an envelope with my name on it is that same cursive script.

This time, the envelope flap is simply folded in. I suddenly feel very exposed. Did I say that I hate it when people seal envelopes out loud on the toilet last Saturday, or just think it?

Sliding the pages easily out of the envelope, this time, I begin to read.

Susan, I am aware of where and how you spent the $10,000. I left for you last week. I am very pleased. You have shown a great awareness of what is important in this life.

You seem to have struck just the right balance between philanthropic causes and enriching the lives of those around you. I am glad to see you bought that ring as well. We all need a little something to make us happy. 

You will not have to ever sell it or pawn it for quick money. Please deposit this cheque for $500,000. in your bank account; I don’t want you to ever worry about money again.

Now that I have seen how you handle it I know that you will do good things with your newfound wealth. With warmest regards, Kendra

I fell back on my bed clutching the cheque and her letter to my chest and cried like a baby. The stress is completely gone…so this is how it feels to just breathe. 🙂