Do I dare pick up this book?



Today’s post is another one from the 365 Writing Prompts but not about music. LOL, I thought I would give you a break on that subject. ūüôā

This is your life

If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

Hmm, this is something I would really need to think about before picking up that book. How thick do you think your book would be? That alone would give you a clue as to the contents.

The question says the book contains all that has happened in your life but there’s no big deal there¬†since we have lived through that stuff already. Most of us can remember what has happened.

The next bit of the sentence says the book also contains all that will ever happen in your life and that is a bit scarier. Think about that for a few minutes…would you really want to know?

Reading the book would take all the unexpected problems and dangers and expose them while there is still time to change things so as to prevent or lessen the impact on your life, perhaps even save your life.

But, all that will ever happen in your life also includes the pleasant surprises and special moments with loved ones. That would take some of the fun and enjoyment out of life if you knew what would be happening, don’t you think?

To me, this suggests you might as well read the last page of books or listen to someone describe a movie before you get a chance to see it for yourself. This would be a spoiler for your life!

The prompt goes on to say that if you do choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover. That means you can’t flip through and sample¬†different chapters at key times in your life to get a sneak peak at what is coming up.

You also would not be able to skip to the end and find out when and how you are going to die without knowing all that came before it. That would be good, though, because what we go through changes how we deal with everything afterward.

In other words, you would not react to  how you die the same way knowing nothing about what lead up to it compared to being able to understand the sequence of events that brings you to when and how you die.

To make that a little clearer let’s consider an example. Okay, you are going to die of cancer. Being informed of that¬†news,¬†BAM¬†smacks you right between the eyes. No warning. No preparation.

However, reading about getting sick, then being diagnosed and having the chance to choose whether to try and fight it gives you a chance to adjust and work through the emotions that come with a diagnosis like that.

I don’t like spoilers, well, except for soap operas. LOL, I don’t want anyone telling me all about a movie or a book before I have seen or read it for myself.

As tempting as it would be to learn what is ahead for me, I think reading this book cover to cover would make living it all afterward exceptionally boring.

No more surprises, no more wondering if you were going to get that promotion at work or if she would say “Yes” when you asked her to marry you. It would also tell you how many children you have and what their names will be.

The book would also tell you when your parents or friends will die and the funerals you go to. Imagine carrying around that knowledge; do you tell them? Would they want to know?

It would call into question the whole “free will” subject too. We, as human beings, are supposed to possess free will to make choices and do as we please but if that is true then how is the book able to tell us what will happen in the future?

After reading the book you would probably make different choices to avoid the bad stuff from happening or to improve the chance of good stuff happening…but then, wouldn’t that change the book?

LOL, I am so confused but after thinking about this whole idea of such a book existing for each and every one of us. I think I have made up my mind on the matter.

So, I think in the end I would¬†NOT want to read this book. I am curious, though…what are your thoughts? Would you want to read the book about you, for your life?





Do You Believe In Ghosts?

ghost by a grave

Today’s post is ¬†brought to you by the one word Daily Prompt ¬†Ghost

This subject tends to divide people into one group or another, that is if they discuss the topic at all. There are three basic groups. I thought I would explore the idea and fill you in on my experiences with ghosts. That’s right, I am in the believer group.

There are the believers who swear by the existence of ghosts, most have a story to tell or a television show they saw showing the actions of a poltergeist (that’s a ghost who can move objects). Then there are all the mediums who can speak to the dearly departed, at least they say they can.

Okay, now, the other group are the skeptics. These people poo-poo the idea that ghosts even exist. Not only have they not had any experiences with ghosts their faith tells them that it is just not possible. You either go to Heaven or Hell and there is no middle ground where you hang around to haunt the living.

The third and final group of people are the undecided.These people have not made a decision one way or the other. Their minds are open to the possibility that ghosts could be real but have not yet found absolute proof that would allow them to claim belief in these earthbound spirits. This also means that with no absolute proof they exist also means that they have also not found any absolute proof that they don’t exist. Hmm, what is a person to do? Why¬†one needs to sit on the fence about the subject of course! LOL

Alright, finally we are at the part where I tell you of my experiences with ghosts. Yes, that’s right, ghosts…plural. I will relate to you two separate incidences where I came face to face with undeniable proof that this is real. I was extremely close to my maternal Grandmother. I just adored her – her manner of speaking and the compassion she showed me when my Grandfather (her husband) teased me just for fun being just two of the reasons I loved her.

Anyway, I digress, when she passed on about a week after her funeral I woke up one night and sat straight up in bed. I could smell her perfume and I felt her presence in the room with me. I was missing her terribly and believe she had come to visit me to reassure me she was okay and was still with me.

I hear you…you are saying that I was just overcome with grief and I dreamt¬†all this in order to comfort myself. Well, years and years later I was visiting my best friend’s house in another city and was curious to see this new house of hers because she claimed it was haunted. After the experience with my Grandmother’s spirit, I was open to another encounter with the other side.

My first night of the three I spent with her that long weekend there was a loud crashing noise that brought everyone out to the living room. There were noises coming from the kitchen as well, that sounded like dishes rattling in the cupboard.

In the living room, we discovered several of my friends CD cases on the floor a few feet from the shelving they were on prior to going to bed that night. As we stood there staring at the mess on the floor more CDs launched off the shelves flew through the air and landed on top of the pile in the middle of the floor.

We all backed out of the room and went down the hallway to the kitchen to find the cupboard doors open and all the cups, plates and bowls shoved to the back wall of the cupboards. One cup lay smashed on the countertop. This was without a doubt a poltergeist. Proof positive to me anyway.

Please tell me in the comment section if you have ever had any experiences with ghosts or poltergeists. I would be really interested to know. Or, are you someone who is a skeptic – can you tell me why? I would be really interested to hear about that too.

Thank you for stopping by my blog to read my thoughts and questions once again my friends. Have a wonderful day/night and I shall be talking to you again in my next post. =)


Profound Thoughts

profound definition


Today’s post was inspired by The Daily Prompt, the one-word subject –¬†Profound

Let’s start this discussion with the definition of profound, shall we? I would just like to make sure we are all on the same page when it comes to our understanding of what the word means.

From the Gage Canadian Dictionary Second Printing 1984 Edition:

(page 898)

profound ‚Äď adj. 1.very deep: a profound sigh, a profound sleep.

2.deeply felt; very great: profound despair, profound sympathy.

3. having or showing a great depth of knowledge or understanding: a profound book, a profound thinker.

4. low; carried far down; going far down: a profound bow.

[ME < OF < L profundus < pro~ towards + fundus bottom] ‚Äď pro-foundly, adv. – pro-foundness, n.

What an interesting word this is, profound. Just the mere sound of the word imparts a sense of intense knowledge to me. It implies that something, be it thought, experience, knowledge has been hard earned. Indeed, my life has brought me a lot of profound moments and experiences and knowledge over the years. All these profound things have given my life a substance and depth that I doubt I would otherwise have known. You know what they say…even though my life has been hard I wouldn’t change a thing because everything that has happened to me has made me the person I am today.

Major clinical depression has been haunting me for many, many years now. Every now and then the chemical balances in my brain change and I need medication for a while to pull me out of the blue funk that steals my life away. I sleep too much, I cry at the drop of a hat and I lose interest in everything that once gave me happiness. You could say I have a profound understanding of the depths of despair depression can take you to. I could describe that feeling, that ennui, to someone in the throws of depression and they would agreeably nod their head knowing that I know what they are going through. I have this same sense myself, having been through countless therapists and well-meaning friends who try to empathize when they have never been there themselves. Immediately, I can tell that they really don’t understand and can’t empathize but merely sympathize with my condition.

The same can be said of my experiences as an abuse survivor. I can tell when someone does not truly understand what it is like and the challenges one faces from that side of a relationship where words and fists are thrown with the intent to hurt. It is through my experiences over the years learning when it is safe to speak, to dare to figure out a plan to get away (or to even imagine that getting away was a possibility) that I have a profound knowledge of what it means to have the freedom to be me taken away. I am thankful that I now know what it means to be free to be myself and not live in fear anymore.

Life itself is a profound experience, a profound journey if you will. How can it not be? Everything that happens to you has to affect you in some way. I mean really consider it, you are a thinking and feeling human being and what happens to you makes a difference in your life. It makes you feel something, believes something or changes something for you. That has a deep impact on the person you become as you get older. You gain knowledge from all the situations you go through just by the virtue of going through them. That knowledge will tell you if it is something you should strive to experience again or if it is something to be avoided in future.

Your life does not have to be horrible to be profound either. As the dictionary entry suggests you can be a profound thinker or write a profound book or have a profound effect on someone else. I would be interested to hear if anything profound has happened in your life that you would care to share in the comments section below. Is it the profound happiness you feel at becoming a parent for the first time? Maybe it is winning the lottery that has made a profound change in your life knowing that you do not have to worry about paying the bills anymore. Don’t we all wish that were true? LOL

Have a wonderful day/night my friends and thank you as always for dropping by my blog to read my thoughts in this post. I do appreciate it, very much. ūüôā You guys rock!

Two Heads Are Better Than One


Have you ever heard of that saying up there? Yes, the title of this post, that saying. It is true, you know, two heads are often better than one and sometimes more than two heads are ideal. I am talking about all kinds of situations where you really do need more input or information than what is rattling around in your own brain.

There are times in this life where another person’s viewpoint has value like when you are struggling with a decision or trying to figure out how to handle a situation. Those other heads I am talking about can be the ones on all kinds of people. They can be close to you such as family or friends or they could be from a much broader sampling of people like a poll on the internet, or they could be a professional such as a therapist, doctor or psychiatrist.

Sometimes you don’t require an answer from them at all. Sometimes you just need a sounding board, hearing yourself tell someone the problem you’re facing is often enough to allow you to work out the solution for yourself. Again, that could be anyone from a close friend you can trust and confide in to a professional therapist who can give you the guidance you need at that moment or in that situation.

You must carefully consider who to seek out when you want to share something that is troubling you. Is the problem benign, like trying to decide on what to have for dinner? A friend or dinner companion is the perfect choice to consult for this type of problem. If the problem is of a more emotional and heavy sort, like trying to figure out how to go on when you lose a significant relationship or if you are having a hard time dealing with the death of someone close to you…well, for that you really should seek professional counsel. Your friends may be too close to the situation or not know what to say, how to best help you.

Recently I had the honor of helping my sister figure out a certain problem. Let me tell you, it is very satisfying when you can help someone put their mind at ease and make a decision that they feel good about. Most of this post has been from the viewpoint of being the person with the issue but I wanted to show this process from the other side as well. If you can be one of those other heads that someone needs be it a sounding board or fellow brainstormer it is indeed an honor. It means they value your opinion and feel open enough to share their dilemma with you. Never be afraid to suggest seeking out a professional if you feel unequipped to deal with what they are telling you. This can be life saving, life altering advice when it is necessary.

Thanks for visiting my blog my friends. I value each and every one of your heads and would love to hear what you are thinking. Please feel free to leave a comment or question for me. I try to get to each and every one I receive. If you know someone who needs to see this please share it with them. Thanks as well to my sister, Karen, for suggesting I write a post on this subject…turns out I had a lot to say about it after all. LOL =)

Things will change…but that’s OKAY!


Change can be good. Seriously, people often resist change because they are more comfortable continuing as they are. If you can see change as good you will be much better equipped to deal with life because like it or not change is part of life. I have learned to embrace change. No, strike that, I have learned to yearn for change. 

There is a saying, although I don’t remember who said it, that change is as good as a rest. What I get from that is that often change can give us a feeling of being refreshed and relieved of boredom. I want things to change…I really do. When things remain the same for too long life gets a little stale…do you know what I mean?¬†

Every now and then you need to change up you wardrobe. It does wonders for your outlook. I know it does, and it doesn’t have to cost a fortune either so that really isn’t a barrier to change. There are discount second-hand stores, and there are relatives and friends that donate bags of clothes for you to go through before they take them to the aforementioned discount second-hand stores. If you are lucky that is.¬†

You can change the decorations in your home, paint, accessories, furniture…you name it, in order to change your environment and lift your spirits instead of look at the same four walls day after day after day. Heck, when it comes to that you can change the four walls. Move! Granted there is a little more work in this particular change but oftentimes it is SO worth it. I tend to stay put when it comes to that last change, though, I have been in my current residence for thirteen or a little more years now.¬†

Your vehicle can be changed too…treating it to some seat covers and a new steering wheel cover can give it an update and change of look. Cars can also be bought and sold too if you want to drive something totally different and let the next owner treat it to seat covers and a new steering wheel cover.¬†

The point I am trying to make with this post is simply to not only learn to embrace change but to yearn for it. Your life will be more interesting and what is a better time for change than in the spring with new life springing up all around you? It is time to shuck off the doldrums of winter and open your eyes and your spirit to the changes all around you. =) 

What can you change right now? It doesn’t have to be big or overly complicated even small changes can have a cumulative effect on the big picture. I challenge you to try it, as an experiment, make a small change and see what it does for your life and for those around you. Please drop me a comment and let me know what changes you are facing or might be willing to initiate and how that makes you feel. You know my feeling on change from this post but I am interested in finding out how you feel about change. Thanks for stopping by to read what I have to say folks…have a wonderful day. =)¬†

Dr.Seuss was a genius!



The theme for today’s post comes from the daily prompt from January 27th which was Quote Me¬†. It asks us to consider the following and then write a post about it. ¬†Do you have a favorite quote that you return to again and again? What is it, and why does it move you?¬†

The quote, above, is my favorite and I think that is because not only are those wise words but also because it resonates with me on a deep level. This wise man speaks the truth, or at least it should be considered as such in my opinion. 

Okay, let’s break it down into smaller bits and really try to understand the deeper meaning.¬†

Be who you are and say what you feel¬†– can you imagine how freeing that is? This is how I envision living my life one day. Let’s face it, we are all a work in progress and none of us has this all figured out. I try to live up to that standard but sometimes doubt creeps in, will people really accept who I am? I feel the pressure to conform to what people expect me to be, how they expect me to act. If I were true to myself, I would not care how people felt. I would simply be who I am. Full stop.¬†

because those who matter don’t mind,¬†– think about that a minute. The people who matter are those close to us, that care about us and how we feel. They accept us faults and all, they accept us for who we are and it is up to us to simply BE who we are.¬†

and those that mind, don’t matter.¬†– do we really need to twist ourselves in all kinds of knots to change for those people? Don’t we have a right to live our lives exactly how we want? I mean, as long as we are not hurting anyone? We have as much right as those people, who criticize us for being who we are, to live our lives as we choose just like they do. ¬†

For a long while, I actually had that blazing across my desktop screen to remind me each morning when I turned my computer on. Now my desktop screen displays an ocean and beach view because that is what I am focussing on currently. In Northern Ontario right now the weather goes from sunny and warm to overcast and cloudy. I choose to start my day looking at the beach scene and feeling the warmth and hearing the waves even if it is only in my mind. LOL 

Thank you for dropping by to read my thoughts once again, my friends. I do appreciate it. If you liked this post please consider hitting that like button down there. If you are new to my blog and like what you see please consider following my blog so that you can be notified when I publish another post. I am curious, too, what is your favorite quote? Why does it move you? I would really love to hear what you have to say. =)


About To Erupt

This is the last of the three poems that I wrote long ago. This one has a volcano theme. Thanks for stopping by to visit my blog. If you enjoyed this poem please consider leaving a like. =)


There’s so much pain inside

It’s inside me and there’s nowhere to hide

Slowly it oozes toward the surface

It takes many forms but still no one sees

The hurt inside me goes on… unending

Let’s face it, tears come for many reasons

It’s just someone having a bad day, others say


Pressure builds like lava from my core

Nowhere to vent this intense pain safely

It burns inside me and I’m scared of it scalding anyone else

Come on, they coax, talk to me

But my tears burst forth to talk first

I’m embarrassed, oh, there she goes crying again!


So, I blow my nose and put a tissue to my eyes

I begin to talk – very small talk, a test

Yes, we’ve established eye contact

Sometimes I’m not sure that’s good

But, if they don’t understand I want to remember

The face that shuts my truth out

I have no interest in being shunned again and again


I have true friends that understand and for them I am grateful

The agony of it all is how can I burden them further?

I can’t tell them everything- so I am still alone

About to erupt…


Written by and Copyright owned by Susan Millard, March 2016